I became acquainted with books when I was still in my mother's womb. My mother, in her second pregnancy, decided that her cravings for ripe mangoes and squid, go well with books (as if mangoes and squid go well either). Grandma used to tell me how mom would always have a book in her hand, reading at any chance she had. I didn't know then and I could've cared less since the only worry I had really, was getting out into the world. 

At five, books and I were finally formally introduced in Sunday School! I read the stories of this guy named Jesus, who turned water into wine, fed 5,000 people with fish and bread, walked on water, died on the cross and raised from the dead. Later, this guy Jesus, would have become the most influential person in my life. 

Years passed, and my love for books slowly grew. I switched from reading the Sunday newspaper comics to Archie comics then science books. I was fascinated by the nine/eight planets existing in a limitless universe powered by a smoldering sun. At one point, I even dreamed of becoming the first woman astronaut to ever land on the moon. But that ambition never lasted; my curiosity of the universe shifted. I found that books took me to other interesting places faster than I could land on the moon. Sifting through my mom's and cousin's small collection of fiction, I took a shot at reading The Count of Monte Cristo by Alexandre Dumas and Maeve Binchy's, I think, Circle of Friends. But what do I know then? Webster gave no definition of the culture all so foreign to me and no further explanation of the English language I was still trying to learn. I was eight and read both books as far ahead as chapter two.

Then, Francine Pascal's Sweet Valley Twins landed on my lap. After it, I craved for more. It was like tasting Nutella for the first time, never letting go until the bottle's swiped clean. Our family trips since always consisted of a stop at a bookstore. Always. I could care less about toys, I'd rather have with me a Sweet Valley book, an Archie Digest and an occasional fancy notebook as my journal. Locked up in a room and lost in the world of my imagination, I'd finish a book in one sitting on a good day. By the time I stepped into high school, I have amassed a mini library of 100+ books, mostly of Archie and the Sweet Valley series, pushing my family to build an improvised book case on the ceiling of our already cramped room. The shelf made our room looked even smaller and hotter, but my treasures, they were safe.

When high school, college and my transition to Guam came, times left alone flipping through brown pages occurred less and less. I would still read, mostly non-fiction, but devoid the intensity, excitement and frequency I once had. Though I love peering through every character, every paragraph, every line, I've turned its pages out of obligation and looked at it with sheer exhaustion - half-reading, half-skimming through. The smell of books had slowly lost its lure. The sight of rows and rows of books neatly classified in Dewey became less and less appealing. 

Life, happened. My priorities were different. I had to grow up. Books and I, we went on a break. 

The winter of 2008 came, we had moved to Italy. Perhaps, it was that exposure again to novel literature and to a teacher, whose love for reading and learning, unyielding. Perhaps, it was Italy or Europe as a whole, responsible for rekindling that petered out light. Its quaint houses, glorious landscapes, majestic palaces, age-old museums, fascinating people, funny anecdotes, all of it created a hunger to read and know more about such, whether true or made-up. I looked at thick binds with an overwhelming sense of excitement deprived of the fatigue I chose to meddle on. Books, stacked higher, patiently wait for the unraveling of their worlds from its confined pages. I used to travel with them but, that too, has changed - I travel with them and they travel with me. I didn't quite know how or what or when it happened, it just did. It was like the father meeting his prodigal son, like a Sparks' last chapter incarnate. 

Books and I, we have been reunited - never to part again, happily ever after.

Check out what or who I've been reading here.
 
 
Caught with the Ms. U fever, I was inspired to take on the five questions thrown at the five finalists albeit, I had a day to edit, probe and think about it. Going back to the pageant results, based on their answers here's how I would have ranked them from top to bottom: Ms. Australia, Ms. Jamaica, Ms. Mexico, Ms. Ukraine and Ms. Philippines. But it really doesn't matter, whoever's crowned is crowned... so kudos to Ms. Mexico!

And here goes, with mine marked "A:," and the contestant's answers in parentheses and italics...what's yours?


Q: What is one big mistake you've made and what did you do to make it right?
"Thank you so much sir for that wonderful question. Good evening ladies and gentlemen. Good evening Las Vegas! You know what sir in my 22 years of existence I can say that there is nothing major, major, I mean problem that I have done in my life because I am very confident with my family with the love that they are giving to me. So thank you so much that I am here" - Venus Raj, Miss Philippines, 4th Runner-Up

A:
 My biggest mistake is not caring enough. Not caring enough to  take bigger actions in bringing about change in my country and even in my community. But by being here and having the influence I hold, I'll be an advocate of beauty amidst chaos, of love despite the raging hate and of hope that one day, my country will rise from where it has fallen. 

Q: How do you feel about full body scanners at the airport?
"I think its a very important question on security. To avoid the type of catastrophe we've already seen and well aware of, so if that helps save the lives of people, then I'm for it!" - Anna Poslavska, Miss Ukraine, 3rd Runner-Up

A: Full body scanners only solve immediate security threats. Violation of privacy sooner or later, becomes a concern - images of our naked bodies, especially a child's will be seen, stored and opened for anyone's misuse and abuse. It really does not guarantee our security but potentially becomes a bigger threat and greater liability.

Q: Is death penalty acceptable and why?
"Good evening Las Vegas. Good evening judges. I believe that life is a gift, a gift given by one ultimate creator. And I believe that none of us humans has the right to take a life. And I believe as mere beings of this earth, has no right to control what only one person can control, and that is God. Thank you." - Yendi Phillipps, Miss Jamaica, 2nd Runner-Up

A: Death penalty is an unacceptable form of punishment because like us, they too, those who have been convicted of a crime, are in dire need of second chances. Second chances to make things right and second chances to better themselves.

Q: What role should the government play in regulating potentially offensive clothing?
"One of the greatest things we have is the freedom of choice. And tonight, we wore our swimsuits designed by Tala and she said that 'fashion is freedom.' And I don't think the government should have any say in what we wear and we can all make our personal choices" - Jesinta Campbell, Miss Australia, 1st Runner-Up

A: The government should slightly play a role in regulating potentially offensive clothing especially in areas and places where proper clothing is a necessity. Government regulations however, should lie within the bounds of our freedom of expression, and in respect of other people's values, culture and safety.

Q: What effect is unsupervised internet use having on today's youth?
"Well I believe that Internet is an indispensable tool in this present time and we must be very careful and watch over what our children watch and see, our teenagers watch and see. And we must be sure to teach them the value we learn as a family so that they may use the Internet properly." - Jimena Navarrete, Miss Mexico, Miss Universe 2010

A: Unsupervised internet use exposes our youth to harmful risks. They have become victims of emotional attacks, sexual abuse, and misleading information. The best thing we could do - government leaders, school teachers especilly parents, is to teach discretion and to increase our youth's awareness on the good and the bad, of internet use. 
 
Fashion, though not secondary to my nature, still ranks high up among my interests. Keeping up with the latest trends, putting pieces together, browsing through fashion catalogs and magazines then, sifting through heaps and piles of clothes for cheap alternatives, give me the same satisfaction as accomplishing a task, a fun one. Different, quirky and sultry define my sense of style. It's an expression of the many things I can't or refuse to say, and a compensation to my infrequent timidity. Contrary to popular assumption, shopping only comes occasionally and it's not some ritual done every paycheck or every changing season. I LOVE clothes as much as I LOVE window shopping. Most pieces I wear are already combination of clothes already sitting inside my ONE, STANDARD-SIZED closet. I am not big on BRANDS either, some of them are overrated or overpriced anyway. Like what my Mom always say, "It's not about what you wear, it's HOW you wear it!" So whether shopping through Rodeo Drive or the next unknown boutique, I operate under these set of "Shopping Commandments" straight from Sinai. 
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1. Thou Shall Buy The Basics, meaning basic colored shirts, tank tops, pants, skirts, that "little black dress" and jewelries. Why? Because they never go out of style and I can pair them up with anything on any casual day. And yes, works very well during fashion emergencies. But don't get me wrong though, purchasing at least one eccentric piece of clothing/accessory occasionally brings that unique sense of style and makes boring outfits "pop." A smart shopper avoids paying for a piece that will only last a season or two, or worse, could only be worn once. So basic, versatile clothes comes top on that shopping list!

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2. Thou Shall Look Out For the Latest Fashion Trends
. "Look Out" not purchase. Realistically, not every outfit can be worn right off the runway. I'd pick a certain piece or two in the latest trends - is it the colors, the cut, the fabric, the pattern, the accessory, before finally translating it to a sui generis stilus, an outfit completely my own.

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3. Thou Shall Not Judge The Store By The Window Display Or The Lack Thereof. I must admit, I have broken this rule more than once because really, I've seen some displays that puts the fashion industry to shame. But, kitschy window displays fail to scare me off, for underneath that facade may lie that gem - a jaw-dropping outfit and/or the best deals not found anywhere else! So when time calls for it, no clothing store goes unnoticed! 

 
Jamipot,

Happy, Happy Birthday! and I just want you to know that Ate loves you so much. I am so ever proud of you for accomplishing so much in such a short time, and a Chemist for that.

I just truly wish that God will grant the deepest desires of your heart and that you will find strength and comfort in Him alone. I wish I could have been physically there, through your toughest times and your joyful peaks. I wish I could have been physically there, to share those moments of gloom and heartbreak, and those moments of victory and happiness. I wish Mom & I never had to leave. I wish Mom had enough courage to forgive. I wish Dad had enough willingness to fulfill his responsibilities and get back on his two feet. I wish our family was never broken. But life has dealt us with these cards, and sadly, it’s up to us to make the most of it. It has been up to us to pick up the broken pieces, to see and to create in them something new. And I’m glad. I’m glad you have played your cards well, and you have beautifully painted your pieces, enough for you to succeed and be happy. You deserve all the love and happiness in this world can offer. I love you so much Sissy, and don’t ever for a second think, that I never or don’t.

Love,

Ate Mai

 
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 once concluded that technology is my pen’s greatest rival though, that conclusion still failed to abstain me from designing a simulated beach house and harvesting crops from one of my too many virtual farms. Shoving that aside, technology did a lot of good connecting me with people from the past and of expunging the bad seeds planted once. Emma, my childhood friend, whom I have not seen or spoken to for the last seven years, was one of the very many I am so happy to get in touch with again.

Re-connecting back with her was like a breath of fresh air. I mean, after years and years abroad finding friends who trust me and whom I can fully trust, here is one who still does. What I love about our friendship is though we have been separated for the longest, talking with her was the easiest thing in the world. It is as if those seven years were nonexistent. Things definitely changed in our lives but our friendship remains a haven of pure laughter, loyalty, stories and fun. Despite all the mistakes we’ve made then and now, we look not with eyes of judgement or condemnation of the other. There’s no hint of competition, of whose life’s better than who, whose smarter than who, whose much traveled than who. She is happy for me as I am happy for her. Her triumphs are my triumphs, and her sorrows are mine. There is only but friends, reminiscing the past and planning to see each other in the future.