This facebook app, God Wants You To Know writes,
“God wants you to know… that you have to pass through a dark night of the soul. Everyone does, including you. A time comes when what you have always believed is true melts away underneath you. When you cast in doubt even the most obvious, the most simple. When it seems that dark night is all around, and you are all alone. Take heart, this journey through abyss is the final barrier before your emergence into the heavenly light of a new synthesis of your being. God is waiting for you on the other side.”
I would have to say that this message hits right home. There were countless times when I doubted God, when I became bitter and angry towards Him,
“Why? Why? Why?” I ask.
Numerous times when I’ve rebelled against him, deliberately and consciously disobeyed His words, pounding my fists in bitter resentments and disappointments. In my heart, I felt God failed me, the society failed me, the Christian community failed me, my family and friends failed me, and most of all I felt, I failed me. The dark night, the abyss does not simply hover around but it penetrated deep inside my being. Did I find answers to my legions of questions? No. Will I ever find all the answers I’ve been looking for? Probably not. But God had renewed my mind. I stopped asking and I began trusting. I even have to agree with what one atheist has to say,
“People just use religion and God as crutches!”
How true! Coz I do, and I really don’t mind having God as my crutch to support my brokenness. After all, God had said to “Cast all your burdens upon Him and I will give you rest.”
I am still in the abyss, in the process of surmounting these final barriers, waiting for my own emergence into the heavenly light. It’s tough and it could be lonely some times. But you know what I’ve realized? In spite of all my failures, my shortcomings and my doubts, God is not simply waiting for me on the other side, but He has been holding my hand all throughout.
Sabi ko nga sa tagalog,
“Ako na nga iyong bumibitiw minsan sa Panginoon, pero hindi nya pa rin ako kinayang bitawan,”
which in English translates,
“I have willfully decided to let go of God’s grip at times, but He simply can’t and won’t let my hand slip.”
“God wants you to know… that you have to pass through a dark night of the soul. Everyone does, including you. A time comes when what you have always believed is true melts away underneath you. When you cast in doubt even the most obvious, the most simple. When it seems that dark night is all around, and you are all alone. Take heart, this journey through abyss is the final barrier before your emergence into the heavenly light of a new synthesis of your being. God is waiting for you on the other side.”
I would have to say that this message hits right home. There were countless times when I doubted God, when I became bitter and angry towards Him,
“Why? Why? Why?” I ask.
Numerous times when I’ve rebelled against him, deliberately and consciously disobeyed His words, pounding my fists in bitter resentments and disappointments. In my heart, I felt God failed me, the society failed me, the Christian community failed me, my family and friends failed me, and most of all I felt, I failed me. The dark night, the abyss does not simply hover around but it penetrated deep inside my being. Did I find answers to my legions of questions? No. Will I ever find all the answers I’ve been looking for? Probably not. But God had renewed my mind. I stopped asking and I began trusting. I even have to agree with what one atheist has to say,
“People just use religion and God as crutches!”
How true! Coz I do, and I really don’t mind having God as my crutch to support my brokenness. After all, God had said to “Cast all your burdens upon Him and I will give you rest.”
I am still in the abyss, in the process of surmounting these final barriers, waiting for my own emergence into the heavenly light. It’s tough and it could be lonely some times. But you know what I’ve realized? In spite of all my failures, my shortcomings and my doubts, God is not simply waiting for me on the other side, but He has been holding my hand all throughout.
Sabi ko nga sa tagalog,
“Ako na nga iyong bumibitiw minsan sa Panginoon, pero hindi nya pa rin ako kinayang bitawan,”
which in English translates,
“I have willfully decided to let go of God’s grip at times, but He simply can’t and won’t let my hand slip.”
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